1. To spend more time reading the Bible and praying.
2. To love my husband more and myself less.
3. To connect more. Sometimes I feel so isolated.
4. To run.
5. To count it all joy.
6. To communicate: by letter, by phone, over coffee, in the car, at church, at home.
7. To waste less time.
8. To love God will all my heart, soul, mind, and strength (…shouldn’t this be at the top of my list?).
9. To make a difference.
10. To be content.
11. To love truth.
12. To give praise.
Some people start the year over every fall, with the school year. But since the dawn of both a new birth year AND the calendar year occurs within one week here at the end of December–this has always been a season of reflection for me. Sometimes my thoughts take a very structured form: in 5th grade, I resolved to cook 1 meal a week, limit myself to 2 squabbles per day with my siblings, and read the Bible every day for 30 minutes. Sometimes, though, my ambitions remain rather vague: a list from early highschool merely states Change the World.
Whatever the final form, I find this time of reflection so helpful. Today I am thinking of a year’s worth of growth in grace and of areas I’ve failed to follow Christ. How few times I died to myself in the last twelve months! Especially in our marriage. How deeply thankful I am for Tim, his love, and our home. I quake to think where I would be without him. I have regrets. I think of things I’ve said and done–or maybe mostly not said or not done–that have hurt and torn down those I love. I think of new friendships formed and old ones lost. I think of the hope and promise–and uncertainty and no doubt pain–of the days ahead. All of this in my head, spinning around and around, tugging my heart into a bittersweet dance.
I am thankful that God is constant. That He is the Author of time. That He knows the end from the beginning and He rules over both.
May He bless and lead us all in 2011.
May we trust and rejoice in Him!
Do you take time for any sort of reflections or resolutions around the New Year?